naming things / adlandırmak (teztaze)

"The absurd is the essential concept and the first truth."
— Albert Camus

it is getting difficult to nema concepts in relation to my practice. i cannot even call it art. it is something...

and i believe that i will not call them "mistakes" or "urban errors". calling something a mistake is accepting that there is something that is proper-flawless...

then how shall one call it?

the fake tomb, the lady who is a middle-person in the cucumöber business; finding beuatiful cucumber only if she tells the name of god a lot of times...

the left over things in istanbul. left over big stuff. but not as big as a building or as a field. without showing you a picture, not very possible to explain.

like a cement block. undefined.

undefined things?

like ufo?

earthly ufo's

the absurd maybe?

the daily absurd?

need mor time on that...

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"ne olabilir.. yanlislik yerine ne olabilir... ayrik otu, purtuklu, basibozuk, asimetrik, tekinsiz, sapmis olusu icinde barindiran birsey. ama bence absurd degil cunku absurd yabancilasmayi icinde barindiriyor.. kara mizah bir tarafi var.
kara mizah vurgusundan cok daha katmanli (iki yana, ileriye ve geriye dogru katmanli) bir kelimeye ihtiyac var.
'yanlisliklarin' oldugu kent, inanilmazliklarin, fantastiklerin oldugu bir kent aslinda, neredeyse..bir bakima. suprizlere ve yaraticiliga meyilli, absurdlugun kara mizahina, ve cikissiz dalgaciligina saplanmis degil. absurd'un temelinde ikinci dunya savasi var, camus'nun edebiyatinda bu olmasi normal ama senin calismana uymuyor bence, cunku sen tikanip kalmayan bir hale, aksine o halin icindeki yaraticiliga ve devam edebilirlige, yasamini surdurebilir potansiyele dikkat cekiyorsun. karamsar birsey yok hic senin bakis acinda. aslinda bu tam da kentteki o akil disi hallere ragmen insanlarin direnir bicimde hayatta kalmalari dedigin sey. absurd ise, kavramin tarihsel olarak ortaya cikisi nedeniyle olmaz yani bence. II. dunya savasi doneminde ortaya cikan dusunce hareketi cok guclu ama artik cok eski bugunu ele almak icin.
bak simdi aklima geldi: TUHAF a ne dersin?
tuhafliklarin oldugu kent....................."
s.

human vs. inhuman

"The human heart is not unchanging (nay, changes almost out of recognition in the twinkling of an eye)..."
c.s. lewis

"At the heart of all beauty lies something inhuman."
camus

bent: towards the sun / vermisse die sonne

muısic for this post: Max Bruch – Kol Nidrei

"Blessed are the hearts that can bend; they shall never be broken."
Albert Camus

"Pain and suffering are always inevitable for a large intelligence and a deep heart. The really great men must, I think, have great sadness on earth."
Fyodor Dostoyevsky (Crime and Punishment)

"Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves, like locked rooms and like books that are now written in a very foreign tongue. Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given you because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps you will then gradually, without noticing it, live along some distant day into the answer."
Rainer Maria Rilke

"I believe a strong woman may be stronger than a man, particularly if she happens to have love in her heart. I guess a loving woman is indestructible."
John Steinbeck (East of Eden)

just to rival that one:

"...my heart was irrevocably gone."

Jane Austen (Love and Friendship)

"Goodbye, said the fox. And now here is my secret, a very simple secret. It is only with the heart that one can see rightly. What is essential is invisible to the eye."
Antoine de Saint-Exupéry (The Little Prince)

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