29 Haziran 2011 Çarşamba

meredith monk: delphine's share from Vienna

"Words mean more than what is set down on paper. It takes the human voice to infuse them with shades of deeper meaning." Maya Angelou - i know why the caged bird sings

listening to the song Delphine has shared with me. Meredith Monk. I remember the blue curtains of my room. shades of blue.

today i hear the news of a possible flat i might move into in İstanbul soon by myself. A possibility.

human voice is a curious thing. tone of voice. color of voice. voice. violence. silence.
voice also can take on an alienating quality. it can as well take on a homely quality. sometimes you fall away from one person just by a sudden realization that the tone of the voice is not right. not real. not your tune. not my tune. not your frequency.

i'd rather resonate with you. i'd rather take delight in the sound ofyour breath. in the sound of a moan. in the sound of you talking.
a moment of distraction. leaves you with not what i say but the tone. it leaves you with what i say plus the tone. it leaves you only with what i say. only with how it sounds. only with how it feels. all is connected.
feelings stay. give an impromptu voice to the feelings. take your stand. be full of courage. voice it out.