disappearing stone

that's an old one; from October; 2nd district

the stone had such a presence

it spoke to me

weirdly enough

the next day i could not see it

metro moments

almost flying; on wheels

turning what i dislike into something i actually might enjy:

i actually was able to make peace with my claustrophobia,

making low quality pics and sound recordings of situations i come across at the ubahn

ok; generally i do prefer to walk, but it is surprising that underground is also full of weirdly dreamy moments - of course the opposite is also true when i am just too dizzy and jump out

moments of the weird / garip anlar

ev.k; uBAhn, vienna

i sit opposite the mother and the child

the mother takes out this thing. she opens the transparent plastic bag. lets it out.

a weird moment. the child trying to hold this torso. i look at the child's feet. the child has a second body. soft. except for the neck. wood instead of veins and blood.

something is happening at this moment.

cannot tell exactly what.

"dont undress my love
you might find a mannequin
dont undress the mannequin
you might find love.
shes long ago forgotten me.
hes trying on a new hat and looks more the coquette then ever.
she is a child and a mannequin and death.
i can't hate that.
she didnt do anything unusual.
I only wanted her to. "
— Charles Bukowski (Love is a Dog From Hell: Poems, 1974-1977)

"We see that in the organic world, to the same degree that reflection gets darker and weaker, grace grows ever more radiant and dominant. But just as two lines intersect on one side of a point, and after passing through infinity, suddenly come together again on the other side; or the image in a concave mirror suddenly reappears before us after drawing away into the infinite distance, so too, does grace return once perception, as it were, has traversed the infinite--such that it simultaneously appears the purest in human bodily structures that are either devoid of consciousness or which possess an infinite consciousness, such as in the jointed manikin or the god."
— Heinrich von Kleist (Selected Prose of Heinrich von Kleist)

"this, then, is how we first came across the fearsome secret history of turkey's mannequins."
— Orhan Pamuk (The Black Book)

making space for the new presence / yeni gelen için yer açmak

"That is why the sadness passes: the new presence inside us, the presence that has been added, has entered our heart, has gone into its innermost chamber and is no longer even there, - is already in our bloodstream. And we don't know what it was. We could easily be made to believe that nothing happened, and yet we have changed, as a house that a guest has entered changes. We can't say who has come, perhaps we will never know, but many signs indicate that the future enters us in this way in order to be transformed in us, long before it happens. And that is why it is so important to be solitary and attentive when one is sad: because the seemingly uneventful and motionless moment when our future steps into us is so much closer to life than that other loud and accidental point of time when it happens to us as if from outside. The quieter we are, the more patient and open we are in our sadnesses, the more deeply and serenely the new presence can enter us, and the more we can make it our own, the more it becomes our fate."

Rainer Maria Rilke

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beautifully put.

*

i remain indoors; preparing new things; stuff of some expression; stuff of some quiet time

on an empty stomach / on a stomach filled with tea and some music

notes from a crash course / transcending physical space / in turkisch

Postcard. L’Escalier Richelieu [The Odessa/Potemkin Steps]. Odessa, Ukraine. Detroit Publishing Company. Circa 1890-1900. (Library of Congress Prints and Photographs Division.)

1985

2009

unutmadan notlar:

dönüşüm muhteşem olacak

geri geleceğim

alla dağı - avusturya

avusturya-türk yemek tarifleri ... this is awesome...

şehrin işçi hareketi haritası

işçi hareketi

görünmezlik

maddeden maddesel olmayana geçiş

arkeoloji. truva. efes. katmanlar.

elde kitap - harita ile maddesel olanın imgelemde değişimi.

transcends.

bu sözü çok kullandım.

arabistanlı lawrence ve jön türk bağlantısı

savaşlar tarihi

karadeniz

aral denizi - http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Aral_Sea

açık kalp gönül yürek...

türkçe!

7sterne, nil, ... what was the name of the place with the delicious light projecvtions... squatters place - onun da adını unuttum. need a better memory stick.

2 girls ? zwei.... restaurant

mariahilfer ve burggasse arası bulunur yine... ayakların seni goturur

and mind jump onto another kind of stairs - odessa

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DLEE2UL_N7Q