irrational magnetism or actuality

"I believe that there is a subtle magnetism in Nature, which, if we unconsciously yield to it, will direct us aright."
Henry David Thoreau (Excursions, Poems And Familiar Letters V2)

Wild he was; a very sight of sights to see; yet I began to feel myself mysteriously drawn towards him. And those same things that would have repelled most others, they were the very magnets that thus drew me.

Herman Melville (Moby-Dick or, The Whale)

"Actuality is when the lighthouse is dark between flashes: it is the instant between the ticks of the watch: it is a void interval slipping forever through time: the rupture between past and future: the gap at the poles of the revolving magnetic field, infinitesimally small but ultimately real. It is the interchronic pause when nothing is happening. It is the void between events."
George Kubler

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Shape_of_Time:_Remarks_on_the_History_of_Things

The Shape of Time: Remarks on the History of Things

moments of the weird / garip anlar

ev.k; uBAhn, vienna

i sit opposite the mother and the child

the mother takes out this thing. she opens the transparent plastic bag. lets it out.

a weird moment. the child trying to hold this torso. i look at the child's feet. the child has a second body. soft. except for the neck. wood instead of veins and blood.

something is happening at this moment.

cannot tell exactly what.

"dont undress my love
you might find a mannequin
dont undress the mannequin
you might find love.
shes long ago forgotten me.
hes trying on a new hat and looks more the coquette then ever.
she is a child and a mannequin and death.
i can't hate that.
she didnt do anything unusual.
I only wanted her to. "
— Charles Bukowski (Love is a Dog From Hell: Poems, 1974-1977)

"We see that in the organic world, to the same degree that reflection gets darker and weaker, grace grows ever more radiant and dominant. But just as two lines intersect on one side of a point, and after passing through infinity, suddenly come together again on the other side; or the image in a concave mirror suddenly reappears before us after drawing away into the infinite distance, so too, does grace return once perception, as it were, has traversed the infinite--such that it simultaneously appears the purest in human bodily structures that are either devoid of consciousness or which possess an infinite consciousness, such as in the jointed manikin or the god."
— Heinrich von Kleist (Selected Prose of Heinrich von Kleist)

"this, then, is how we first came across the fearsome secret history of turkey's mannequins."
— Orhan Pamuk (The Black Book)

a moment in a novel / saluting a lucky encounter

once more, i salute a favorite moment in a novel; with respect to a lucky encounter with a contemporary Marco Polo -from Vienna- who introduced me today to some new books & places.

"Do you believe in a future everlasting life?

No, not in a future everlasting but in an everlasting life here. There are moments, you reach moments, and time comes to a sudden stop, and it will become eternal."

— Fyodor Dostoyevsky (Demons)

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both Franziska and this amazingly allegorical person reminded me of this book. i had no clue when i heard the name "demons." and now i make the connection, finally. it was the "the posessed" by dostoyevski after all. a trick of memory.

(the mind has weird ways of remembering: the association with the "The Dispossessed" by ursula K.L. Guin made it easier to remember D's book as "the possesed" instead of "demons"... or was the mind reluctant to pursue the word "demons")

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moved by clouds / bulutlarla hareket edenler

And I remember that we who move

Are moved by clouds that darken midnight.

-Delmore Schwartz

excerpt from the poem: At This Moment Of Time

green flower necklace / yeşil çiçek kolyesi

bahriye'nin hediyesi kolye, ve diğer değerli minikler atölyede masamda / bahriye's present (green flower necklace) and other precious little ones on my table in the studio