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26 Aralık 2010 Pazar

boem, rhiz, white dreams, christmas shirt, fluc

so i guess that was a christmas night!
boem was great! with some fun lights and excellent food and beautiful people.
after 1 a.m left for rhiz.
it s such a pleasure to talk to people of some intellect & sharpwit.
even eyes tell it all and still, talking directly is such a bliss!

good sleep and good dreams during the day
waking up in the afternoon to laugh at the jokes: black book
i call this a holiday, all right!

Fran: You know, in Tibet, if they want something, do you know what they do? They give something away.
Bernard: They do, do they? That must be why they're such a dominant global power.

and some good electronic music at fluc
first with deniz, afterwords alone but never alone

stepping out to get a slice of pizza; the pizza man is TUrkish; pizza is on the house;
he used to work on a ship in istinye. he sends his regards to istanbul. he is good.
3 slices of free pizza. i share that with a person i meet at fluc. i watch the dj. slowly drink my last beer.

i like unexpected good things
and oh yes i had missed such a sleep... from dream onto anothe rdream
this is what i call a holiday
a few days of break will do me good
and i still did not frget to continue sound recordings - today at fluc

11 Aralık 2010 Cumartesi

"and beauty is of smallest duration"/ the Strudlhof stairs


on the Strudlhof stairs i spent some hours yesterday. daylight faded into night. i kept recording...
as i was lured by the movements of a hanging plant in tune with the wind, i overheard the language of some footsteps. i heard somebody look at me; i heard this in the sound of his steps. with a side-glance i felt like seeing this person who introduced me to the idea of this stairs.

i walked to the steps. i looked down.

only to marvel at the appearance of my accidental viennese guide for the night. the russian marco polo. who is very luckily still in vienna. the last time i came across him was at this owl place. i bought him some dinner to pay my respect. (and on this fucking cold and magnificiently metaphorical day, i had actually sent him and also simon a message to translate 2 lines of the poem by Doderer. this poem i tried to read in german. at the base of the stairs by the fountain was this poem. the last two lines rhymed and sounded very poetic. i craved to understand the language. however, as it turns out he had not received this message. he received themessage after he tried to translate... after his appearance here. shaved face; fresh smell; and a particular distance like that of a comrade even.)

and marco polo walked past by me. i asked: "what are you doing here?" delighted with his presence.

he was here by a touch of magic, as he stated it.

and here he tried his best to translate.

the wanderer said:
vase with this bloody green stuff: moss he means.
between the wars ...

much has sunken...
"it should be poetic as well so i can't do a direct translation"

... would be grief

as marco polo struggles with the translation, an old man comes in... at a point marco polo stumbles, an old man approaches the marco polo and the unknown digitized stranger, the oriental little one so to say... the passer-by approached and offered these two souls some help... this passer-by's version is:
"the beautiful is the smallest thing"

and marco polo put the bits and pieces together:
"much has sunken in grief "; or:
"a lot has been sunken in grief and sadness"
"and beauty is of smallest duration"

as we step down to view the stairs from below, we recite: jugendstill, art deco..
he points to the middle and says:
"here we go: vase in the middle. mosses. "

"hey, they renovated it, actually!"

this was also the day i got my new pink 80s LAMY. from a magical store.

"so, this is where you travel between time!"
"in 1918, the austrian empire breaks up; and the narrative jumps forward and backward and forward and backword ... all these figures they meet at the stairs"

"it's bloody cold here, let's go up", says the white-skinned marco polo with the russian-british accent. i am already shivering. we go up the stairs, once more trascending time. trascending space. just by walking.

i adore the sight of the streets in vienna at this time of the year. as if i have seen it in spring or in summer? no, just my imagination. i realize that i perceive this city to be an extension of Pera, taksim, istanbul. it gives me space to think and to reflect.

and i just found this piece of literature in english online. just tonight.


On the Strudlhof Steps in Vienna
...
the mossed urn in the middle, by the wall,
outlasts the year between the wars and dying.

So much is past and gone, to our dismay,
And beauty shows the frailest power to stay.


Heimito von Doderer, "The Strudlhof Steps"
tranlated by Vincent Kling.

i enjoy the passer by's and marco polo's version better. (and simone's version is erased due to some absynth and vodka and beer. which was really not necessary at all. this was also the stupidest night in this oriental little one's personal history. she just kept on sending out messages to the eastern countries, sharing the fact that she was watching the turkish star trek in vienna after a time travel in a neighbouring stairs. with friends. and she also sent messages to marco polo. who was he, actually? at this point there was a twist in this digitized technology, like a twist of fate, the message system started to have a life apart from her. acting on its own will. it was a solidification of some will power anyway; the whole night. the oriental little one missed the beat, ordering an unnecessary glass of beer. and as soon as she believed in its unnecessity and th out-of-tune situation, she spilled over the glass of beer. luckily, marco polo was not hurt. and still soon she would already have to apologize for another weird and off -tune behaviour, an excess of feeling, of not knowing how to show in what way... and the next day she looked for words to call herself. shall she call herself a fool. an alien? a child too impati,en at times to miss the beat and run fast only to fall face down. she should call her self the sweetest fool. she had a touch of boldness, some brevity that would surprise men and women both. it was all right in the end. apologies accepted by marco polo. new exciting projects already set on the table. a man of his word; the oriental one wished that marco polo, too, is a human being of his word. a promise is a promise. stairs is stairs. stairs in this case is also the ultimate time machine. for this little shapeShifternightDrifter, the crash course on the psyche of vienna proved most worthwhile... in gratitude, she dived into sleeps and dreams that she would not remember the next day.)
"and beauty is of smallest duration"

6 Aralık 2010 Pazartesi

busyy bee, that's me / sounds of the city

busy busy day.
finally i am home; and still need to work more. this is something other than a need; a passion i guess. so curious what will come out of these sound recordings, notes, and drawings.
so i guess now i need to make a schedule. i am terrible with schedules. yet always enjoy the challenge. so since making a schedule is a challenge, i should also enjoy that...


i am in love with the ZOOM sound recorder. I went to many spots, recorded all kinds (not all but many) kinds of sounds that i had an intuition i would use in trhe video and the animation. and also, when i am back in istanbul, it will be lovely to listen to the sounds. sounds are more real than pictures. somehow. they live in the present tense.

i sat among a group of birds. pigeons. they were not afraid of me. they came near my feet, my bag. they were busy trying to eat the pieces of dry bread. "dry": at that moment i could not remember this word. i said "solid." but anyways, i thought i was recording, but as it turns out, i did not record. you have to push twice. and i pushed only once on the record button. yes, the perfect way to learn is to make mistakes; is to fail!

kings of convenience sings that well:
Failure is always the best way to learn,
Retracing your steps untill you know,
Have no fear your wounds will heal.

bugun ses çekimi yaptım sokaklarda. kuş kanatları sesleri çektiğimi sandım ama meğer makinayı kullanmayı bilememişim çekmemiş. neyse . başka sesler çektim. yarın artık bi daha denicem kuş kanatlarını.
ama baya kuşların arasında allahın soğuğunda da oturdum yani. ve kaçmadılar. bıdı bıdı yuruyorlardı. az ucup konyorlardı

i had white tea with sweet luzi and johannes. i stopped by the labFactory to loook for my camera. and there i met Lutzi, so actually she is working there now, it turns out. i was so happy to see her. we looked around for my camera. and on that black box actually two hair-clips of mine were still standing. and finally the camera was also in the office.
and Lutzie said we could drink something warm at their place which was very near. it was really near. and such a cosy, beautiful, tidy house. there was a swing:( of course, i got on it. and some lovely conversation, completed with a twist of chocolate. so it was st. niklas day today as it turns out. so we HAD TO eat some chocolate. JOhannes is from Finland. I would love to visit Finland. I think Lutzi is from Steria. I am so curious about the mountainside of Austria. I believe most of the people i have met so far are from the mountains. And they are nice. they have a different sensibility towards materials. things. i like that. and she had some paintings from a street artist. i must learn the name. i forgıt the name.
a nd i learned a neue word today:
"bedienung"
the person in charge of the sound& video equipment taught me that. mr. hoerman. he has photos of Greek İSlands. I told him: "ich schwimme im meine draum." i am not sure if this is right; but "er versteht":P
i had made a photo of the photo of the greeek island with my cell phone. i should also transfer my photos from the cell phone. oh i should have hundreds by now...

yes, finally somebody thought i was JAPANESE! this afroamerican guy who sells homeless people's newspapers in the Kardinal NAgl PLatz. We met in other metro stations too. HE greets me all the time. He asked for my numberi but i said i had a TUrkish number. It's ok. He is from Cameroon. and i need to ask his name again. I think it is GODLUT.

i will write more and also upload some photos. now i need to drink some warm tea and listen to goo dmusic and take care so that i do not succumb to the flu. oh, yes, the flu. "the bloody cold"...
i adore how a person's use of language is passed on to another person. that's some empathy... or a flock psychology; hmm i would prefer empathy.

and today at some point, between many errands and places, i checked my emails from the MAc store. kids were playing computer games. I really recommend the Mac store fro checking your emails. it felt like a MAc-bar:P just needed some drinks. oh well... they wouldn't appreciate a cup of tea or hot kids punch near the MAcs, right.