24 Ocak 2011 Pazartesi

sunny skies over vienna

i had an animated surprise ride to the airport. anna and dani also came along; we were still gossipping as i passed the security check. AND the plane ride was soooo sunny. fell asleep to the warmth of the sun. and woke up under slight rain. and found myself by the bhosphorous looking at topkapı palace and leandros tower; sipping tea along with sibel and my mom... busy days immediately began:)) the farewell party and the whole exp. in vienna supplied me with energy to face ist again!

photos will follow soon
a lot alot a lot to do
good to be in ist
good to be in my studio

16 Ocak 2011 Pazar

"aklına deniz kaçmış karmaşa"

one job done; with this lightness onto the next task!
some sage tea and lots of water...
bol sıvı, iyi uyku

15 Ocak 2011 Cumartesi

in dreams begin responsibilities

rüyamda hamsi adında ufak bir balık restoranının yerini hatırlamaya çalışıyordum. ruyamdaki başka kriter mekanlara gore konumunu ve hatırladığım bazı mekanlara gore konumunu zihnimde bulmaya çalışıyor bir turlu oturtamıyordum nerde olduğunu. ama yurursem bulrum ayaklarım bulur dedim.
otobusten inerken dışardaki soğuk için kat kat giyinmeye calisiyordum
yağmurlu bir gunde bir yapıyı sokağa bağlayan merdiven sistemini farklı tarihlerde gordum. uzerine bir tente atmışlar. ama tente, hep merdivenlere paralel yani merdivenlerden inerken bir yandan tenteyi de bir elle yukarı kaldırıp basamak basamak iniyorsun. basmaklar yarı ıslak. demek ki tente tam gorevini gormuyor. ve basamaklar dar ve yuksek. yuksekte binanın girişi. ahşap merdivenler dik. birçok kez inip çıkıyourm. biri sinirlenip merdiven sisytemin oynatmaya çalışıyor yerinden kaldırmaya. diyorum ki inanın bu şimdiye kadarki en iyisi en azından kullanabiliyoruz.
suzan milavskayı gordum fenerbahçe yazan bir stad girişinin onunde. kat kat kmaşlar içinde gulumsuyor. hamsi restoranına çağırdım. onun yanındaki çocuk da biz de balık pişiricez. ev de yakın isterseniz bize gelin dedi. ama hamsi'de buluşacağım okadar insanla gelmek uygun olur mu diye dusundum ruyamda.
ve bir iskele. ahşap iskele. bir guzel minik kedi. denize dusuyor. ama daha yuzeye yakın. hemen tutup çıkarıyorum. sonra biz dalıyoruz ve bir bakıyorum nerde diye. dalmışız bir ara. ve bakıyorum denize dusmus ve derinliklere gıomulmekte ve kurtar dercesine bana bakmakta. deniz son derece pis ve ağır. ve sadece bakakalıyorum atlasam mıyı dusunerek ve yavru kedinin gozlerindeki bakış ve suyun derinliklerine gomulurken yakaladığım bakış ile irkilip uyanıyorum bir ara. bu merdivenlerden daha onceki bir ruyaydı
oksuruk devam
işler devam
herşey devam
güneş var bugun:)) the sun to keep us company. vienna, 3rd district.

hapşuu: Terunobu Fujimori

http://evrimkavcar.blogspot.com/2009/03/vernacular-architecture-takasugi-by.html


kuğu

kuğu açılışı 11

11
Görüyorsun ki ben çocuk değilim
aşık da değilim
maksadım güzel sözler söylemekten ibarettir.
lale müldür
http://cigdemk.blogspot.com/2010/04/kugu-acls-11-ve-16.html

esiyor

" kayısı çiçekleri
doğudan batıya esiyor,
onların düşmesini engellemeye çalıştım."
l.m.

14 Ocak 2011 Cuma

fantastik

oksurmekten çalışamıyorum.
ne tuhaf.

bager'le konuşurken, seda'nın önerilerini de tekrar düşündüm. alp'in kaza ve tekinsiz hatırlatmasını da. ve neden donup durup sonunda konunun net olmadığı ve sıkıcı boyuta geldiğini de. ebru ile de dün akşam şunu konuştuk. tezde soyleyeceğimiz şey kimi ilgilendirecek. bir sosyolog değilsin ya da sanat tarihçisi değilsin. sanatın uretim alanından neyi nasıl ne amaçla soylersin o zaman. sonra da Bager metro'da, kimin okumasını isteriz dedi. kim ilgilenir bizim yazacağımız şey ile?

ve arife'yi de düşününce,
kentle şehirle kısıtlı kalmayacak başka bir gözün - algının - derdin varlığının farkına vardım.
bir adım dışarı çemberden.

bager, şehirden kurtarmak lazım seni dedi.

gundeliğin içindeki fantastik dedim bugun; uçabileceğime inanıyorum işimi şekillendirmeye çalışırken.
animasyon. yarı-belgesel animasyon.
stadyum - arife- otobus - hatta gunluk hareketlerde bile kadının çevresindeki verilerin oluşma sureci gercek verilerden yola çıkıyor ve donusturuyor - şu an ugrastığım meryem-salatalıklar ve kırmızı kitap... olmuş olandan çıkıp uçuyor ya da topraklanıyor

animasyon ve gundeliğin içindeki fantastik, bizi nereye getirir. bir gerçekliğin animasyonun ifade imkanları ile aktarımı. gerçekliğin - bir olayın - bir karşılaşmanın kayıt ve araştırma aşamaları ve bu aşamaların nasıl bir animasyona döndüğü.
algı, üretim, dönüştürme sürecinin deşifre edilme süreci olarak tez
ne dersin

zaten çiğdem de hep bir 'yine uzaklaştı esas olandan' tepkisi veriyordu tezle ilgili konuşmalarıızda. ama sezgisel olan. daha doğal ve akış halinde olan. animasyon için hazırladığım prçaların kendileri gibi fantastik. sürecin dönüşümü. sürecin parçaları. süreç.

linz - vienna - istanbul

Bager was here! He did great stuff in Lİnz. He does great stuff everywhere any moment! Such an inspiration on feet!
looking forward to experience the "artificial stupidity" gadget & game.

13 Ocak 2011 Perşembe

fotoFilm: hollis frampton's nostalgia in 4 parts

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=voMDL1TgTh4

"In (nostalgia), Frampton is clearly working with the experience of cinematic temporality. The major structural strategy is a disjunction between sound and image. We see a series of still photographs, most of them taken by Frampton, slowly burning one at a time on a hotplate. On the soundtrack, we hear Frampton's comments and reminiscences about the photographs. As we watch each photograph burn, we hear the reminiscence pertaining to the following photograph. The sound and image are on two different time schedules. At any moment, we are listening to a commentary about a photograph that we shall be seeing in the future and looking at a photograph that we have just heard about. We are pulled between anticipation and memory. The nature of the commentary reinforces the complexity; it arouses our sense of anticipation by referring to the future; it also reminisces about the past, about the time and conditions under which the photographs were made. The double time sense results in a complex, rich experience." - Bill Simon


viva fotofilm


http://www.amazon.co.uk/Viva-Fotofilm-unbewegt-Katja-Pratschke/dp/3894726792

Klappentext zu: Viva Fotofilm! - Bewegt/unbewegt

Fotografie steht traditionell für das Stillbild, gefriert Bewegung ein, hält einen Augenblick fest. Das Medium Film steht für Bewegung. Unter Fotofilmen versteht man Filme, die im Wesentlichen auf Fotografien basieren. Sie entstehen an der Schnittstelle beider Medien. Eine Reihe prominenter Autoren haben sich dieser Form bedient, so Chris Marker, Leonore Mau & Hubert Fichte, Elfi Mikesch, Nagisha Oshima, Raul Ruiz, Shelly Silver und Agnes Varda. In den letzten Jahren wenden sich verstärkt junge Filmemacherinnen dieser Filmform zu; angezogen vom intermedialen Arbeiten und der Möglichkeit, die künstlerischen Ideen ganz unmittelbar und direkt umzusetzen, ohne großes Filmteam und Budget. Die Beiträge sind als Anregung gedacht, Fotografie im Film, inspirierter und spielerischer zu verwenden und über die Potentiale beider Medien erneut nachzudenken.
Originalbeiträge von: Hubertus von Amelunxen, Raymond Bellour, Christa Blümlinger, Nathalie David, Stefanie Diekmann, Ole Frahm, Gusztav Hamos & Katja Pratschke, Daniel Kothenschulte, Verena Kuni, Michaela Oft, Gerd Röscher, Gerhard Schumm und
Thomas Tode.
Gespräche mit Praktikern: Sirkka-Liisa Konttinen & Peter Roberts, Leonore Mau, Elfi Mikesch, Katja Pratschke, Gusztäv Hämos & Siegfried Zielinski, Agnes Varda, Franz Winzentsen.

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Programme Five: The Photo Novel

Elfi Mikesch, Execution: A Study of Mary , 1979
Elfi Mikesch
Execution: A Study of Mary 1979
© Elfi Mikesch, Berlin 2009


Saturday 13 March 2010, 15.00

The narrative photofilms in this programme are time crystals in which different worlds appear next to, or even inside each other. Films by Raul Ruiz, Elfi Mikesch, Katja Pratschke and Gusztáv Hámos are photo novels that quote the history of cinema and experiment with narrative forms.

-
hollis frampton - nostalgia
statues also die
Alain Resnais Chris Marker 1950-1953
:00-9:58/29:54
35mm, B&W
French Language

utopia & reality / land of quotes

"It is our suffering that brings us together. It is not love. Love does not obey the mind, and turns to hate when forced. The bond that binds us is beyond choice. We are brothers. We are brothers in what we share. In pain, which each of us must suffer alone, in hunger, in poverty, in hope, we know our brotherhood. We know it, because we have had to learn it. We know that there is no help for us but from one another, that no hand will save us if we do not reach out our hand. And the hand that you reach out is empty, as mine is. You have nothing. You possess nothing. You own nothing. You are free. All you have is what you are, and what you give."
— Ursula K. Le Guin (The Dispossessed: An Ambiguous Utopia)

"One cannot in the nature of things expect a little tree that has been turned into a club to put forth leaves."
— Martin Buber (Paths in Utopia)

"The stupidity of people comes from having an answer for everything. The wisdom of the novel comes from having a question for everything....The novelist teaches the reader to comprehend the world as a question. There is wisdom and tolerance in that attitude. In a world built on sacrosanct certainties the novel is dead. The totalitarian world, whether founded on Marx, Islam, or anything else, is a world of answers rather than questions. There, the novel has no place."
— Milan Kundera (The Book of Laughter and Forgetting)

"Human beings will be happier - not when they cure cancer or get to Mars or eliminate racial prejudice or flush Lake Erie but when they find ways to inhabit primitive communities again. That’s my utopia."
— Kurt Vonnegut

"You cannot take what you have not given, and you must give yourself. You cannot buy the Revolution. You cannot make the Revolution. You can only be the Revolution. It is in your spirit, or it is nowhere."
— Ursula K. Le Guin (The Dispossessed: An Ambiguous Utopia)


"Utopias are boring. Distopias on the other hand, are interesting."
— Robert Silverberg

"Excess is excrement, ... Excrement retained in the body is a poison."
— Ursula K. Le Guin (The Dispossessed: An Ambiguous Utopia)

"A child free from the guilt of ownership and the burden of economic competition will grow up with the will to do what needs doing and the capacity for joy in doing it. It is useless work that darkens the heart. The delight of the nursing mother, of the scholar, of the successful hunter, of the good cook, of the skilful maker, of anyone doing needed work and doing it well, - this durable joy is perhaps the deepest source of human affection and of sociality as a whole."
— Ursula K. Le Guin (The Dispossessed: An Ambiguous Utopia)

"The inferno of the living is not something that will be; if there is one, it is what is already here, the inferno where we live every day, that we form by being together. There are two ways to escape suffering it. The first is easy for many: accept the inferno and become such a part of it that you can no longer see it. The second is risky and demands constant vigilance and apprehension: seek and learn to recognize who and what, in the midst of inferno, are not inferno, then make them endure, give them space."
— Italo Calvino (Invisible Cities)

"I am an excitable person who only understands life lyrically, musically, in whom feelings are much stronger as reason. I am so thirsty for the marvelous that only the marvelous has power over me. Anything I can not transform into something marvelous, I let go. Reality doesn't impress me. I only believe in intoxication, in ecstasy, and when ordinary life shackles me, I escape, one way or another. No more walls."
— Anaïs Nin

"Reality is that which, when you stop believing in it, doesn't go away."
— Philip K. Dick (I Hope I Shall Arrive Soon)

"Reality is frequently inaccurate."
— Douglas Adams (The Restaurant at the End of the Universe)

"We are like sculptors, constantly carving out of others the image we long for, need, love or desire, often against reality, against their benefit, and always, in the end, a disappointment, because it does not fit them."
— Anaïs Nin

"Always remember, your focus determines your reality."
— George Lucas

"Life is a series of natural and spontaneous changes. Don't resist them; that only creates sorrow. Let reality be reality. Let things flow naturally forward in whatever way they like."
— Laozi

"It's hard to tell the difference between sea and sky, between voyager and sea. Between reality and the workings of the heart."
Haruki Murakami

10 Ocak 2011 Pazartesi

esnek kalp ya da kalp bükülmesi / how much can a heart bend

elastikiyetin & hoşgörünün de bir sınırı var-mış
the "bend-ability" of the heart, too, has a limit after all

only who are as beautiful & generous & respectful & loving as my good friends will be welcome from now on
and to all those with neither respect nor empathy; who do not know how to share : goodbye
spend time with people with whome there is actually a dialogue, a mutual enrichment

this may be my new years resolution

"The truth is, everyone is going to hurt you. You just got to find the ones worth suffering for."
Bob Marley
"Be yourself; everyone else is already taken."
Oscar Wilde

7 Ocak 2011 Cuma

take a ride take a shot now: excellent soup

onion, garlic, ginger, lemon grass, spicy thai pepper - red, carrots, green beans, quarter of a tomatoe, just cooked on low heat while working on photoshop, afterwords added noodles and finally, some cilantro/coriander
lovely, yummy, delicious

a photo should follow soon
as soon as i overcome my laziness or other tasks and do the uplaoding
empty talk i do this sometimes bla bla:P
along with a que of portishead and all associative other ones

Oh, can't anybody see,
We've got a war to fight,
Never found our way,
Regardless of what they say.

How can it feel, this wrong,
From this moment,
How can it feel, this wrong.

Ohh ...,
Can anybody see the light,
Where the morn meets the dew,
And the tide rises,
Did you realise no one can see inside your view,
Did you realise forwhy this sight belongs to you.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AvQ-3uVX63c&feature=autoplay&list=QL&index=4&playnext=1
Just set aside your fears of life,
With the sole desire

Done it warning,
Done in now,
This ain't real,
On in this side,
...
Oh can anybody see the light,
Where the morn meets the dew,
And the tide rises,
Did you realise no one can see inside your view
Did you realise, forwhy this sight belongs to you



snow topped waves / vienna - north sea connection


2009 northsea - 2010 kardinal nagl platz, vienna snow
viyana bloğumdur kendisi

held together with water & memories
water, snow, ice, and then comes in a melting heart
every now and then

perception deepens experience

we are time machines!

"If our friendship depends on things like space and time, then when we finally overcome space and time, we've destroyed our own brotherhood! But overcome space, and all we have left is Here. Overcome time, and all we have left is Now. And in the middle of Here and Now, don't you think that we might see each other once or twice?"
— Richard Bach (Jonathan Livingston Seagull)

çok klişe; ve seviyorum bu klişeyi.

time machine


so he shares his trick: how to make the watches look shinier than ever
this was near Landstrase / a watch-show; well, a diamond-watch show to be exact

disappearing stone


that's an old one; from October; 2nd district
the stone had such a presence
it spoke to me
weirdly enough
the next day i could not see it

snow topped beer

beer at Prater with Dani
i am just so lucky to have met Dani
she is a share-r by heart
as i make a small plastirin sculpture of the fake Russian Marco Polo

snow in glass; snow outside the window
this is in december

metro moments

almost flying; on wheels

turning what i dislike into something i actually might enjy:
i actually was able to make peace with my claustrophobia,
making low quality pics and sound recordings of situations i come across at the ubahn
ok; generally i do prefer to walk, but it is surprising that underground is also full of weirdly dreamy moments - of course the opposite is also true when i am just too dizzy and jump out

christmas dinner & a night's walk before chrsitmas

the pink on her cheeks give us pure joy; neverending games she comes up with every second
nordpol, christmas dinner

christmas dinner at Nordpol; 2nd district

nordpol: want to go there again. i love this place somehow.

walking from pratern to kardinal nagel platz

some kind of a nightDrifter diary